Kabir POV

It's Sunday I was sitting in a cafe with Rehan and he was constantly talking about the girl he met a few days ago, and lemme guess he is falling in love with her, cause his eyes were sparking only the mention of her.

"and you know we exchange numbers, and we met yesterday also..", he said.

"You're in love with her Rehan.." I said in the middle of his talk, he stopped for a moment before his face turned red and for god's sake, he blushed for the first time that too just because of that girl name.

"I also thought so", he said with a flushed face, I chuckled and shook my head, "why are you laughing", he said with an annoyed face,

"I'm thinking which girl will be able to tolerate you..", I said with a teasing smirk. "haha very funny at least she is better than Mahira who left you alone in the station", he said with a tight lipped smile. my smile faltered thinking about that night, even today that night sent shivers in my body, how when I asked the police inspector to leave Mahira also, he told me that she had already gone, I felt hurt.

"But whatever, your boss is great, she saved you that night otherwise I don't know how many days you would have been there", Rehan said making me out of my thoughts, I nodded and my mind went towards Sia ji, her words, her expression, how her words and her eyes telling different stories.

"What are you thinking again..", Rehan said with a frustrating tone.

"I was thinking about Sia ji..", it slipped out my mouth before I stopped myself.

"Huh what.., sia ji.., seriously bro you're thinking about that time bomb girl..", Rehan said with wide eyes and surprised tone. I don't know why but I didn't like how he called her time bomb.

"Rehan shut up", I said with a glare. "Okay fine..", he said raising his hand with a mock surrender.

Our order came and I started drinking my chocolate shake and Rehan eat his pasta, I looked outside through the glass window, my mind went again on her, why I feel so attracted towards her, why my heart want to know more about her, why every time I felt something twisted in my stomach whenever she is close to me, and one thing surrounded my head, Is she has a daughter, is this true, why no one knows this? then reality hit me, I came out of senses and jerked all the thoughts from my mind.

"Kabir controls yourself", I muttered to myself.

"Huh.. did you say something..", Rehan asked, I shook my head and drank my shake.

"Okay now I'm going, I have to do work", I said and stood up for leaving for home. "Okay bro", he said and I left. I sat on my bike and left from there, I was in mid path when I felt a car was following me, I looked at the mirror and it confirmed someone is following me, Panic surged in my body, I speeded up my bike and the car behind me also speeded up.

"Hey Mahadev who is this who is behind on me", I muttered and took a turn in an alley, when suddenly another car blocked my way, I applied the brakes with a jerk, sweat buds came on my forehead, the car behind me also came and stopped, and a few men came out from inside, I step out of my bike.

"who... who are you and why are you following me..", I said in a steady voice while my heart was thumping loudly in my chest. "You're SR secretary didn't you..", one of the men said, I looked at him with wide eyes, what the hell is going on why everyone asked me the same question and why every time every danger is connected with her, when I didn't replied, he took out something shiny things, and my whole body trembled when I saw a gun in his hand pointing towards me.

"What.. what are you doi.. doing", I shuttered badly. "Where is SR..", he asked his finger on the trigger.

"I.. don't know.. please leave me..", I said with pleading voice. But he didn't say anything and came towards me, I took a step back in fear.

"where is she telling me or I'll kill you..", he said in his dangerous voice sending shiver in my body, I shook my head and said, "I really don't know please.. please leave me".

"then you are of no use to us..", he said pointing the gun at my head, I froze in my place, my breath hitched, I want to run, but it felt as my legs froze in its place, I close my eyes tightly in fear, please Mahadev save me.. I don't want to die.

I heard the sound of a bullet being fired, and it seemed as if my soul came out of my body, but I felt no pain, I opened my one eye then another and saw the man who had pointed the gun at me, there were signs of pain on his face and blood came out of his hands his gun was on ground.

"Stay the fuck away from him", a cold and dark voice came from side, my head snapped towards the direction and saw her, Sia ji, her eyes blazing with fury, and the darkness in her eyes, give me goosebumps in my body, then my gaze fell on her hand, she had gun in her hand.

"You bitch how..", another man was cursing when another shot rang in the alley, the bullet hit that man's leg, I looked at her with wide eyes my jaw dropped, her expression didn't change, she didn't even blink before shooting tbe another one, she has no expression, a man shot towards her, a small scream came out of my mouth, but lucky it didn't hit her, I take a relief breath but it's for a moment and there come some people in black dress, and everything started getting worse for me, the whole alley echoed in screams, and bullets like bullets, I was so scared that I closed my eyes and put my head on my ear.

I just can't see this scene, its terrifying, I hate violence, even the slightest blood makes my stomach churn, and now I see the pool of blood in front of my eyes, make me feel sick, I just can't stand seeing this, then I felt someone's hand on my shoulder, I froze in my place and didn't dare to open my eyes, "Kabir..", I heard a soft yet firm voice.

I slowly opened my eyes and my eyes met with her hazel eyes, which showed concern, then my eyes went behind her, and I felt my head spun and my stomach twist painfully, there were more than 10 people lying dead in the pool of blood, I looked at her face, which showed no regret, and suddenly everything went black in front of my eyes.

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I felt something wet on my face, like someone licking my face, I stirred and opened my eyes, and I felt my heart nearly stopped for a moment, my soul left my body, there was a white tigress with ocean blue eyes in front of me, my breath stuck on my throat when she looked at me.

"Blaze you're scaring him", a voice came from behind, I turned my head and saw her sitting on the couch without any expression she had a whiskey glass in her hand, she didn't even look at me, but it seemed as if the animal understood what she was saying she backed away from me, and I release a breath I don't know I was holding, she went near her and sat near her foot, Sia ji caressed her hair and she also purred in her hand and put her head on her hand, my jaw dropped seeing the scene infront of me.

what the hell, didn't she be afraid of this dangerous animal, I thought.

"I don't feel afraid, cause she is my pet", Sia ji said and I flinched in my place, she raised her head, her expression calm and calculating, her eyes staring at me like she is not looking at me but my soul.

"this.. animal... your.. pet..", I shutter, A loud growl came out of her pet, I backed away then I noticed that I was in a room and on a soft bed.

"Don't call her animal, her name is Blaze, don't provoke her, she didn't even hesitate before splitting you in two" Sia ji said, my eyes widened, I tightly wrapped the blanket around me and looked at them with fear.

"Aap.. aap kya.. kyu.., kaise..", I shuttered not able to say properly in fear, she put her glass whiskey on the table and stood up, she looked at me and her lips twitch upward in a smirk, she came near me, her every step were predatory, I grab the blanket tightly, she leaned towards me, I leaned back until my back touch the soft mattress, her smirk widen and her eyes turned more dark.

(You.. you..what.. why.., how..)

I tried to turn to the other side but she pinned me and put both hands either of my sides, I closed my eyes and I felt helpless and a tear rolled down on my cheek, I felt pathetic, I should not cry, a man never cry.., I grew up hearing this, but I'm literally tired and scared so much that I can't able to process anything, whatever is happening with me, every day a new secret and a new fear is coming.. and today I have seen my death so close to me and now her presence is scaring me.

I felt a soft hand wiping my tears, I opened my glossy eyes and looked at her, her expression still unreadable but her eyes are enough that she is concerned about me, "what are you doing to me kabir..", she whisper, her breath fanning over my lips, sending a chill in my body.

Her thumb brushing away my tears, she put her hand on my cheek and I felt my whole face turning hot and red, her presence both scary and overwhelming. "Ma..ma'am..", I called my voice very low even to hear me.

"Aakhir kya hai tum mei aisa.. jo mera dimaag meri sunne ko taiyaar nhi hai.., kyu tumhari nazdikiyan mujhe affect kar rahi hai.., kyu tumhe dard deke mujhe apne dil mei dard hota hai.., jis dil ko maine kabhi mehsoos nhi kia, kyu vo tumhare nazdeek aane se dhadakta hai.." my breath stuck in my throat, my eyes widen and my lips parted in shock. We still had eye contact while her thumb caressing my lower lip, my stomach flip and I felt sensation in my heart which I never felt before, what the hell is going with me.

(After all what is so special about you that my mind is not ready to listen to me.., why is your closeness affecting me.., why does my heart ache when I see you in pain.., the heart which I have never felt, why does it beat when I come close to you.. )

"Kyu tum meri nazro se ek pal bhi door hote ho to mujhe bechani si hoti hai, kyu.. kabir kyu...", she paused* "Aisa to mujhe kabhi kisi ke saath bhi feel nhi hua.., phir ye ehsaas itna alag kyu hai.., kyu tumse ek pal ki bhi doori bardash nhi.., kyu tumhari aankho mei apne liye ye darr dekh ke mujhe khud se hi nafrat ho rahi hai.., aur jab us darr ki wajah mei hu to zindagi mei.. pehli.. pehli baar apni hi jaan lene ka mann karr raha hai", my heart skipped a beat, I looked in her eyes and I saw a unknown emotion in her eyes.

(Why do I feel uneasy when you are away from my sight for even a moment, why.. Kabir why...)

(I never felt like this with anyone, then why is this feeling so different.., why can't I bear separation from you even for a moment.., why am I hating myself after seeing this fear in your eyes.., and when I know I'm the reason of your fear then for the first time in my life.. I feel like taking my own life)

"And I hate this feeling, I fucking hate the way I feel for you", her voice changed from soft to cold again, "I hate that you made me feel this.., I hate that you came in my life and without knowing you're changing it.., I have my own goals, I'm not good.., I'm bad.., actually I'm worse.." her eyes held coldness, and I felt someone twisted my heart, she touched our forehead, I closed my eyes.

"Tumhe door karna chahti hu.., par tumse door hone ke khyal se darr lagta hai., aaj tak mujhe kisi cheez se itna darr nhi laga par ab mujhe darr lag raha hai., aur iske liye mei tumse hamesha nafrat karungi.. par mujhe pata hai.., jo khyaal is waqt mere dimaag mei hai vo galat hai.., it's forbidden, A Sin, for me.., for you.. for society.., but don't know why.. this heart wants to commit this Sin, you know what", she leaned back, I opened my eyes and looked in her eyes and my heart beating so fast and loud that I can clearly hear it.

(I want to keep you away.., but I am afraid of the thought of being away from you., till today I have never been so afraid of anything, but now I am afraid., and for this I will always hate you.. but I know it.., the thought that is in my mind right now is wrong.., it is forbidden, a sin, for me.., for you.. for society.., but do not know why.. this heart wants to commit this sin, you know what",)

I NEVER HAD ANYTHING FAVOURITES, BUT YOU HAS BECOME MY FAVOURITE FORBIDDEN SIN.

Author's Pov

"Pardon me your highness", suddenly a voice startled them, they looked at the door, there a servant was standing with his head bowed, and they both came to their senses, his face turned red sensing that what intimate position they were in, and perhaps that servant also saw them like this, that is why he bowed his head.,

"ma'am..", Kabir called her, she looked at him and he avoided eye contact, "Everyone is waiting for you your highness..", that servant said again and left the room. He felt more embarrassed when she didn't lift up, and stared at his face, "ma'am please..", he whispered.

She came in her senses back and tried to stand but she got unbalanced and fell on him, her lips touched his neck, his eyes widened, goosebumps erupted in his body, his heart almost came in his mouth.

She felt him uncomfortable, so she quickly stood up and straightened her clothes. He also sat up and took some long breaths, he was still in shock, "Stay in this room and don't come out of this room until I return", she said and without hearing his answer she left, Blaze followed her.

He looked at the door and then he touched the spot where her lip touched his neck, "What's wrong with me", he said to himself and then he fully looked around, it was looking like a guest room but it was full of luxury, there all the things of the which anyone needed, everything there was kept neatly in my place.

Meanwhile Sia came downstairs in the hall, Blaze was following her, There were some people sitting in the hall, whose faces had no expressions, as soon as they realized that Sia was coming, they stood up from their place and bowed their head in respect for her, she sat on queen couch and Blaze sat beside her, all of them also sat there.

"What's the information", she asked, her voice dark and dangerous, "he wants to meet you, and want to propose a deal", one of the woman said.

"Did you find his background, is dealing with him give us profit", she asked with cold and calculating voice.

"He wants weapons with us.., and in return he is ready to give us information about that rare diamond, the blood diamond...", a women said.

"And how can you be so sure that he was saying the truth, Anvesha", sia asked with raising brow. "We know it's a very crucial thing, but for now we need every small detail about that blood diamond, if we get it, you'll not only rule in the corporate industry but the dark realm also", Another man said.

"I'm still ruling on the dark realm Lucas, but yes I need that diamond at any cost.., I don't want anyone to challenge me ever again, I want to become powerful whom no one can ever touch, not even able to look at my eyes straight, so set the meeting up.., but..", she paused and her eyes turned dark, she whispered low yet enough hearable, "no one knows about this meeting, not even other team members, it'll be between me, Victor, Angelina, Lucas and Anvesha.., am I clear". They all nodded and then left.

"What do you think Blaze I'll get that diamond", she asked caressing her head, she growled and then purred in her hand, like she was confident that she'll do it, a smirk came on her face.

She went back to the guest room and rooted her place seeing the scene in front of her, Kabir was sitting middle of room he was looking at ground with horror, his face etched with pain as a vase broke from him and a glass piece pricked in his hand, but he was more scared than in pain because by looking at that vest he could tell that it was very expensive.

"Kabir..", she said with concern, he raised his head and fear gripped his heart, "ma'am.. I'm really..", he was about to apologize but she didn't even look at the vase, she closed the distance and pulled him up, and looked at his hand with a worried expression

"bache ho kya aise kaanch ke tukdo ko haath se utha rahe ho..", she scolded him, he blinked his eyes and looked at her in disbelief.

She made him sit in bed and asked the servant to bring the medical box, after a moment the servant came with a medical box and gave it to her, "thoda dard hoga..", she said and took out the glass piece.., "ahh..", a painful whimper came out of his mouth, he grabbed her other hand tightly, she looked at his hand and then his face, his eyes were closed in pain, his lips.

She jerk her sinful thought away and clean the wound and blow some air from her mouth to give him relief and applied some ointment, and bandage it.

In this time the servant cleaned that vase also, Kabir opened his eyes and looked at her, "I'm sorry", she put her finger on his lips, his eyes widened, heart thumping loudly in his chest,

"Tum kitna bolte ho.., aur ek hi baat repeat karte rehte ho.. bilkul mendhak ki tarah.., vo tar.. tar.. karta hai.. tum ma'am.. ma'am.., ab agar dobara aisa kia to mei tumhe kabir ki jagah mendhak bulaungi..", she teased him playfully. He looked at her in utter disbelief.

"What.. me.. and mendhak, in which angle do I look mendhak to you..", before he could stop himself these words came out of his mouth. "In every angle", she said looking at him from top to bottom a small smirk on her face. A growled voice came from behind.

Kabir crawled back seeing Blaze.., fear could be seen in his eyes. "Blaze you're scaring him, don't do this again", Sia said to Blaze and she also sat there without any noise. Kabir sometimes saw Sia and sometimes Blaze.., "she understands what you are saying", he asked fearfully.

"Sometimes animals understand your emotions better than humans..", she said with a slight smile. He can sense a hidden meaning behind her words.

"Wanna touch her.." Sia asked. "No..", Kabir said instantly.

"Are you afraid she will not do anything", Sia said and grabbed his hand, Kabir tried to free his hand but she didn't leave him and stood him up and came closer to the Blaze, Kabir was trying to hide behind her.., "ma'am please.. no..", he said, at this moment he want to just disappear.

"Shh.. calm down kabir.", she said and put his hand on the blaze head, her hand over him, Kabir's hand trembled, she felt it and slowly started caressing the blaze head blaze also felt comfortable in his presence and purred, "see.. she also like it..", Sia said with a small smile, Kabir was hesitant at first but as time was passing, he himself started caressing her head.

Blaze was also wagging her tail happily she was liking Kabir's touch After some time Kabir became comfortable with her, he sat next to her and then placed his hand on her, Sia looked at with little surprise, she never saw Blaze this much comfortable with anyone.

A servant came and said, "your highness dinner is ready".

"Okay let's go kabir", she said Kabir followed him like an obedient child and started walking behind her, Blaze was also walking beside him. He looked around and saw that this was the same villa where he had come earlier also. She came and sat on the dining table.

The servant served the food and went away. Kabir was looking at food with weird faces, all the healthy food was in front of him but he was not liking to eat it at all, he raised his eyes and saw that she was eating the food quietly, "who eats such food, there is only boiled vegetables here", he thought in his mind and stared at food.

"Did you not like it", her voice startled him, he looked at her, she raised her brow, "What..", he asked.

"Did you not like the food..", she asked again, putting her spoon on the table and crossing her hand, he gulped and said without looking in her eyes, "vo.. mei..", he was hesitant to tell her,

"Make something indian dish for him", she said to the servant before he completed, she still remembers how he enjoyed indian desi dishes, he looked at her in surprise, How she knows what is in my mind.., he thought.., cause she said you're her favourite.., his subconscious mind said, heat rushed to his body.

"Its okay I can..", he was about to say that he will eat the food but she again cut us off in the middle and said, "If you don't like something then you should refuse, learn to say no, otherwise people can take advantage of your innocence..", he felt speechless.

For some moment there was a silent but then breaking the silence, an innocent and lovely voice came "Mumma".